Halloween 2011

Monday Oct 31st


I recieved a text from a friend asking if i had seen the FB post regarding the funeral of a friends granddaughter. I quickly made arrangements for a sitter and said i'd be there.

What a bitter sweet experience.. this sweet couple had lost their baby, full term and gave birth to a still born baby girl. My heart still breaks for them. As the family pulled up and the small casket was taken from the car, the feelings from Jesse's service rushed over me. I couldn't hold back the tears and knew all to well the sadness this couple was having to endure. To know that they will not get to take her home to her room that was all to ready for her, have her there for her first christmas, all the times of saying.. "no no, stop, don't do that..." and most importantly rocking that sweet baby to sleep. I understood the pain all to well, the sadness that comes with loosing a child and the thoughts of how it would have been to raise this child.

I do know that everything happens for a reason, I know that there is a reason this baby girl and my Jesse had to leave this earthly life sooner then any of us wanted them too, i can take comfort in knowing we will see them again. Thank you to a great friend Rebecca that has become such a wonderful friend in the past year, she was their for me.. and i know she really cares.

On a lighter note, it was the twins (Ryan and Kaden's) first time trick or treating..we tried last year, but only being a few months old.. they totally didn't get it.
Ryan was the orange M&M, Kaden was yellow, I was green and Paul was the red one. We had a great time. the boys did not want to be stuck in their wagon, they wanted to be right there along with everyone walking. Toward the end of the night, they were so scared to walk up the stairs.. in fact, Kaden tried on several occasions to go into their homes :)
We ended the night at 8pm.. we had enough.. but had perfect weather.. was so grateful for that!!
So i am blessed. I'm blessed for the two little spirits that fill me days with laughter, frusteration and exhaustion. I wouldn't have it any other way. I love them more and more and grateful for the time i have with them.